MOM of 3. Life can be crazy though. Do you ever ask yourself, are your sure? Sometimes I think I can’t be their mom. NOT today.

• Baby poops in diper #nottheirmom it’s dads turn
• Kid is covered in mud #nottheirmom go clean yourself up dude.

It’s the times you laugh at the silly stuff but you’re thinking how is this my child! Then other times, like when she breaks her arm, you’re thinking yup, I am totally their mom.

Who do they get it from more? The Mom or the Dad?

My husband said. “When the baby is happy she’s ours. If she’s screaming she’s yours” haha

PREGNANCY AND BIRTH

NO EPIDURAL I was unknowingly preparing myself for Surrogacy.

I wasn’t ready, I wasn’t prepared. I’m living with my inlaws, we were going to buy a house, we just got married we were going to go to Thailand!

Nope, never mind, you just got pregnant. Time to save, make sure everything gets paid off, and now you can’t travel, for a long while. I was in denial, honestly till about 17 weeks when I saw that peanut turn into a human on that ultrasound. All I knew was I felt nauseous, all the time. It’s that drunken feeling that you’re going to throw up, but you never do.

Finally that feeling want away, we got a crib, had a baby shower, then wholy crap ITS A BABY. I had my membranes swept at 37 weeks. I was already dialated to almost a 3. So why not?

Next thing you know 7am the next day, I was in labor, was at the doctors 9am to check it out because I was NOT going all the way to the hospital to get sent home. She said BABY DAY I was at a 5. By 11 I was at the hosptial they broke my water at 1pm. It start to hurt around 2, then I had a baby by 5:30. No epidural, just 40 minutes of pushing. No big deal right? Well, besides the fact I just shoved out a 7.5 lb baby with no pain meds and threw up 3 times in the process. I did try laughing gas. After the 3rd puff I lost Consciousness momentarily and decided that it wasn’t worth it. I was so dizy I couldn’t focus and I was just rocking.

I can’t guarentee every labor will he the same. I can only hope my next will go like that. I will say I love my child as much as any other person. I panic and send her doctors a message when she gets a rash. I could only only breast feed for two weeks but that doesnt make me any less her mother.

I’m sad I distanced myself through my pregnancy. I think it will help me in the future when I ultimely have to give up a child I cooked for 9 months, but knowing its not biologically mine makes me feel like I’ve done something with purpose. I hope to bring awareness to this topic and inspire other young women.

EVEN IF YOU SAY YOU’RE NOT THEIR MOM. OR YOU’RE NOT READY TO BE A MOM. THEY WILL STILL ROCK YOUR WORLD.

Even if you don’t birth a child. YOU ARE STILL THEIR MOM